I'm 45 and now I Have Herpes
To begin with 2015 was going pretty good for me with a few ups and downs but mostly good. I had a pretty good friend relationship with this girl and we would see each other now and then. We would go out have and drinks, go to the movies go back to my place and have awesome sex. That kind of fizzled out early Dec.2015.
So anyway I hooked up with this girl on the internet who I knew growing up. She comes to stay with me for a week and things are pretty good…lots of sex. She leaves and goes back home.
Anyway New Year’s eve I’m at the bar and my ex-girlfriend texts me...I’d had a few drinks so I’m pretty festive. I tell her come on down. We end up going back to my place and pass out and have sex in the morning.
So a few days later I notice a pimple on the side of my groin and I think it’s some sort of insect bite. And it starts to hurt. It looked like a boil. To make a long story short, I went to the Doctor and he looks at it and by this time it starting to heal however I had some red speckles on my testicles. The Doctor says it looks like Herpes but to make sure we did a blood test. Sure enough it comes back positive.
Herpes is last thing I ever thought that I would get…didn't even consider it. The doctor says I could have had this for a very long time and now it just now showed its face. I let the girls know what was up. The one that came to see me got tested and said everything came back negative. My ex says she has not been with anyone since me from way before and has no signs or symptoms.
All I know that ever since I was diagnosed with this I have not been able to sleep well. I have anxiety in bed and toss and turn all night. I feel like there's no hope at finding anyone to be with now. When I get off work, I just want to not be around anybody. This is not like me.
I know that I’m not going to die...however my mind keeps thinking of what if this…what if I did that...stuff I can't change. I look around now and wonder who else has this. My doctor said its quite common but no one is walking around with a sigh on them saying here I am. It’s been almost a month since I found out.
2016 has not been my year so far.