Herpes in 2017
I am 19 years old and a student. I am so clean and have never been one to sleep around, and had always used a condom. I have managed to obtain molluscum, chlamidya, genital warts, and now i was told I had herpes 2 days ago. I try to stay strong constantly but its so hard, I keep trying every single home remedy ive seen along with exams and part time work, its just a vicious circle. I have a boyfriend who is very supportive, but we obviously havent been having sex for about 4 months now, and it was a huge part of our relationship. I have never felt so down about myself ever, and I find myself wanting to just start everything over in a new body, one that isnt disgusting and filthy. I dont feel confident in myself anymore, and I often find myself just bursting into tears whenever I look. I have stayed positive for so long, since last november when I started to have molluscum, and when I got chlamidya. Even talking about this I feel shameful and disgusting like everyone knows. 2 days ago the doctor took one look at me and told me that I had herpes, however she took a swab anyway just to double check. It does look similar in some ways, but not alike in others. I am waiting on these results and I dont think I can take another blow alongside everythinb else. Its so horrible not wanting to be in your own body, and walking down the street thinking everyone knows. I dont know what I want to get out this post, honestly nothing anyone says can pick me up from this, when youre a young girl youre supposed to be having fun and feminine, and im sitting crying all night feeling so ugly.
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