Feeling Lost With Herpes

I've been living with herpes for the past year I am 26 years old. My boyfriend and I have been off and on for the pass 9 years. We have 3 wonderful children.

Its been a whole year and I still cannot believe its true. I remember going to the doctor because I thought a spider had bit me and I found out that I was having an outbreak.

My boyfriend has been there for every step of the way and he hasn't left my side. But in the back of my head I wonder was he the person that gave it to me?

All of my life I always said that I will never sleep around because I didn't want to get a STD.

I have only had 3 sex partners my whole life and I just wonder why it happened to me?

Every time that I have an out break I feel worthless and dirty. Every night I wait til my boyfriend and children go to sleep and then I go into the bathroom and cry and ask God why did this have to happen to me?

Thanks for sharing all of our stories because reading them made me feel a little better.

Now I know that I'm not the only one out there feeling this way!!! I just pray that I get through this a stronger person that I am now.

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Sep 23, 2015
Choose to Feel Pretty and Happy With Herpes Instead!
by: Ed

Thank you for taking the time to share your story with our community. I'm sure that it will help others as reading these have helped you handle the any ups and down's of having herpes.

First of all,dealing with the emotional turmoils of having herpes is the single most difficult issue that most people with herpes have. Feelings of being dirty and worthless are extremely common and nearly all of us has shared them from time to time.

The physical issues are relatively easy to handle. We can simply take a pill, apply a cream, take a bath, or use a host of other remedies out there to ease the physical pain and speed up recovery.

But at the end of the day we all know that we still having this virus lingering in our bodies laying in wait for another opportunity to pounce when our immune systems are compromised, or when we find ourselves under abnormal stress from our daily lives.

The psychological issues from having herpes can't be treated the same as the physical issues. We can't just take a pill and the mental anguish of having this virus goes away. It takes much more than that...and it takes much longer to conquer.

But the good news is that we are in total control of the psychological problems. We all have a choice to either let this virus control us or we can control the virus.

We can either spend our time crying about the woes of having herpes or we can spend our time trying to make this world a better place for our family, friends or for strangers.

We can either say "why did this happen to me?" or we can say, " why did this happen FOR me?". What can we do to use the virus to help ourselves grow spiritually, mentally and physically?

Trust me...I know that its easier said than done. It takes work..a lot of work for most people. But it can be done.

You can choose to feel dirty and worthless or you can choose to feel pretty and grateful. Worthy of all the amazing things this world has to offer. Change your thoughts. Change your life!

Am I glad that I was infected with HSV 2 25 years ago? Hell no! However, I am very grateful that I have been able to use the virus to my advantage over the years. And in turn, allowing me to look at my life and the world from a different perspective.

I am most grateful that having herpes has lead me building and maintaining this website. For providing others an outlet to help them conquer the physical and psychological challenges that they are facing...and for others to have a chance to help others.

I wish you success and happiness. Choose to feel pretty and happy, instead of dirty and worthless.


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